This pretty much sums up my feelings today.
My friend Anthony says God blessed is with pain to be compassionate toward others. Today, I have been thinking--what if our weaknesses are our strengths? Does that feel any different? I feel better about myself thinking this way. Being sad about the end of a relationship means I love someone and I am vulnerable enough … Continue reading What if our weaknesses were strengths?
New nightly practice Friends like Julie Friends like Miranda with her hobbies and creativity and support Friends like Diane with her sunshine and love Korea and imprinting new memories here Christine and her new family My mother and her health e.g. walking up Namsan My legs to run My cousin 박주호 My loving and open … Continue reading Gratitude list 2017.09.22
I realize I can check some items off of my bucket list or my IHAWTs list this year. I have: Taken my mom on a wonderful vacation, Rocked a bikini (an unfortunate byproduct of having no appetite this summer), and Learned a song for the marai, because everyone should be able to deliver a love … Continue reading 2017 bucket list updated
I am the kind of person who has to touch the hot stove before I learn. I messaged Darrell about getting together. I felt fine when I hit send, now I have a little queasiness. Thing is, my addict logic, I tortured myself about it for two days. I wanted to stop overthinking. Now the … Continue reading Well, I did it.
I am looking for peace today, which comes from what these relationship experiences have taught me. I am day 5 in Korea without contacting Darrell. Small wins. Steve taught me to: Speak up about my wants and needs right away Ask my partner to take part in problem solving with me Seek a partner who … Continue reading What my relationships have taught me
Mixed feelings being here in Korea. I remember Darrell meeting me at the airport with flowers. I know he is here with his new love, and that takes some of the wind out of my sails for having moved on and placing our relationship in the past as necessary for my growth. I suppose that's … Continue reading Visiting the motherland with my mother
I give up. Steve and I had a beer tonight. We had not really seen each other since coming back from Canada--Steve going directly into a four-day, music festival; me preparing for a big, annual meeting at work. Tomorrow, my mother and I fly to the motherland for two weeks. This has been a busy … Continue reading Two different perspectives on a relationship
Do you see yourself as the amazing gift to the world you are? Or are you like me and most often see yourself for your flaws, your fears, the things you didn't say or haven't done? When I think of my friends, I think of what I love about them. With Brenda, I think about … Continue reading How do you see yourself?
I was texting with my new friend Anthony this weekend. He suffers from chronic pain from a military injury and self criticism from abuse as a child. I swear, I want to hug every person I know who suffered from lack of love as a child and tell them they're ok. I asked Anthony if … Continue reading Pain leads to empathy