The Old Ceremony is a local band Steve and I used to go listen to. I have a lot of good memories with TOC, seeing them play at Motorco and around town and Steve and me watching the vibraphonist play at Guglhupf's Oktoberfest years ago. We were so new and fresh then, in love with … Continue reading Reminiscing about Steve
That weight on my chest was gone. I scanned my body for it, and no, it wasn't there. I have woken with that feeling of dread and depression every day for the last couple of years. Kind of a heavy weight in my chest, and a feeling after I wake up of, "oh, I am … Continue reading I woke up this morning with an unfamiliar feeling.
Without even knowing it. Like that first holiday I took by myself without Tula, after we separated. Tonight, we had a neighborhood, hot-dog party. A young woman and her husband in our hood organized it. I signed up to bring hot dogs, and other neighbors brought watermelon and snacks. This young couple, Laura and Shaun, … Continue reading Tonight was just what I needed.
I have Googled this, and there are a zillion posts from people who are divorced or who have broken engagements. It's kind of sad to read these posts from people who are fresh off of a breakup from someone with whom they thought they'd spend their lives. In any case, I don't have any sentimentality … Continue reading What do you do with engagement rings?
God knows, I am so tired of self-help and navel-gazing. I want to be done. Through. On the other side. My own biggest cheerleader and champion. But I clearly have a little more growth in me. I saw Barbara today. I am going to sign up for her Healing the Child Within seminar. I am … Continue reading Healing the child within
My good friend DD shared this with me: I also am reading Too Good to Leave, Too Bad to Stay right now. I have been searching for ways to make a relationship work, to try harder, to feel like I gave it my all, to be able to leave with a clear conscious--and maybe along the way, … Continue reading 10 Reasons to Leave Things Not Meant For You (While Feeling Good About It)
My mother says, if we are lucky, we can know one real friend like this in our lifetime. olufunke abiola moses was this friend to me. God blessed me to know her and be loved by her. I met many of her friends, spent time with her husband, and got to know her family better … Continue reading Have you ever had a friend who saw the best in you?
We said "goodbye" to Mr. Song today. Korean Presbyterian Church in Fayetteville held a service for him. About 50 church members came, including Mr. Song's three elder brothers. Between them, there was plenty of animosity and years without communication, but today #3 brother lamented he "could no longer even argue with his baby brother." Yunchol, … Continue reading Goodbye, Mr. Song
Ever seeking to operationalize my life, I've picked up Getting Things Done again and will finish it this month. I know there's no silver bullet. My goal this year is to pick a small number of things I want to focus on--completing a family tree, sticking to a plan to maintain my Korean, calling and … Continue reading I’m going to pray in 2014.
I met Mo out at Kings Barcade for The Love Language show tonight. She brought Margaret and Alex. Later, Joe showed up Steve. I was hoping he wouldn't show, since I love The Love Language, but that's the extent to which I don't factor into his decisions. He looked so adorable. When I see Steve, … Continue reading Raleigh is too small.