Steve said the thing that bothered him most about me was my being noncommital. Am I noncommital? Yes, it may look that way. With Steve, I am afraid of being in a relationship that doesn't satisfy me physically for the rest of my life. At the same time, I have been afraid of hurting Steve … Continue reading Fear of commitment
The Old Ceremony is a local band Steve and I used to go listen to. I have a lot of good memories with TOC, seeing them play at Motorco and around town and Steve and me watching the vibraphonist play at Guglhupf's Oktoberfest years ago. We were so new and fresh then, in love with … Continue reading Reminiscing about Steve
Without even knowing it. Like that first holiday I took by myself without Tula, after we separated. Tonight, we had a neighborhood, hot-dog party. A young woman and her husband in our hood organized it. I signed up to bring hot dogs, and other neighbors brought watermelon and snacks. This young couple, Laura and Shaun, … Continue reading Tonight was just what I needed.
I have Googled this, and there are a zillion posts from people who are divorced or who have broken engagements. It's kind of sad to read these posts from people who are fresh off of a breakup from someone with whom they thought they'd spend their lives. In any case, I don't have any sentimentality … Continue reading What do you do with engagement rings?
My college, quasi-boyfriend texted me yesterday to check in about Korea. We have a sweet acquaintance now, where he checks in from time to time, and we talk about his wife and daughters and life just a little bit. I told him I was taking my mom to Korea next month and want to live … Continue reading You only live once!
My mother says, if we are lucky, we can know one real friend like this in our lifetime. olufunke abiola moses was this friend to me. God blessed me to know her and be loved by her. I met many of her friends, spent time with her husband, and got to know her family better … Continue reading Have you ever had a friend who saw the best in you?
We said "goodbye" to Mr. Song today. Korean Presbyterian Church in Fayetteville held a service for him. About 50 church members came, including Mr. Song's three elder brothers. Between them, there was plenty of animosity and years without communication, but today #3 brother lamented he "could no longer even argue with his baby brother." Yunchol, … Continue reading Goodbye, Mr. Song
Ever seeking to operationalize my life, I've picked up Getting Things Done again and will finish it this month. I know there's no silver bullet. My goal this year is to pick a small number of things I want to focus on--completing a family tree, sticking to a plan to maintain my Korean, calling and … Continue reading I’m going to pray in 2014.
I met Mo out at Kings Barcade for The Love Language show tonight. She brought Margaret and Alex. Later, Joe showed up Steve. I was hoping he wouldn't show, since I love The Love Language, but that's the extent to which I don't factor into his decisions. He looked so adorable. When I see Steve, … Continue reading Raleigh is too small.
Today, we presented our economic development strategies in Dr. Hoyman's class. I really enjoyed taking her Community Economic Development class. She brought guest speakers in each week and made sure we read at least two perspectives on every issue we covered from business incubators to incentives to social capital. This was our last class, and … Continue reading one semester down, three to go