January 8, 2019
Mantra: I love money and money loves me.
Five things I remember my parents telling me about money:
1. We did not have enough money.
2. Money is not meant to be wasted, i.e., buy things on sale.
3. Get a good job so you can make a lot of money, i.e., be a doctor or lawyer so…
4. Send me money every month (like a good, Korean kid).
5. That is too expensive, e.g., that dish, that jacket, etc.
Negative thoughts that come up:
1. We do not have enough money. What is enough money?
I have enough money to feed, house, and take care of myself.
2. Money is not meant to be wasted. What does it mean to waste money really?
Money supports things that make my and others’ lives comfortable.
3. Get a good job so you can make a lot of money. What does a good job look like, is it only based on salary?
Money flows when I am doing something I love and am good at.
4. Send me money every month. What does it mean to be a “good” daughter?
Money is abundant for me to live a full life and help my family when they need it.
5. That is too expensive. Am I worth spending money on that?
Money supports my health, happiness, and well-being.
Most compelling, new truth
Money supports my health, happiness, and well-being.
Areas I have been clinging to security
My romantic relationship with Steve; not moving forward; stuck.
I am grateful to money because money keeps a roof over my head and keeps me warm, secure, and safe.
January 5, 2019
I want to be intentional about creating wealth, cutting expenses, saving, and leaving money for a greater good, and I don’t think I will get there by working a 9-to-5 alone. I am reading You are a Badass at Making Money and plan to read more money books in 2019 to figure out how to get there. I will give this book a try
Mantra: I love money because I love myself.
All the reasons why I deserve money:
1. I am smart and would put money to good use.
2. Nobody deserves money, therefore I deserve money as much as anyone?
3. I am a child of God, and if money is a tool to fulfill potential, I deserve to have money.
4. I deserve money because I am giving and would give money to help others.
5. I have worked in my life more than many “trustafarians.” I am no less deserving.
6. I deserve money because I deserve to be happy, and money is a tool to live a full life.
7. I deserve money because I deserve to be healthy, and money is a tool to buy good food.
8. I deserve money because I love to learn and explore, and money is a tool to travel.
9. I deserve money because I love my friends and family, and money is a tool to see them.
10. I deserve money because I want to secure my future and health.
I see, this does get easier.
Some beautiful things that have happened in this world thanks to money:
1. Children’s smiles are corrected thanks to money.
2. A children’s hospital in Cambodia was built thanks to money (USAID).
3. The “lynching museum” was constructed in Montgomery thanks to money.
4. The Taj Mahal was built with money.
5. The UNC MPA program has created a diversity scholarship thanks to money.
6. I received a grad school RA stipend thanks to contributions from alumni.
7. I was able to move to Korea and live and take classes thanks to my grandmother.
8. Funke’s headstone was able to be purchased and erected thanks to money.
9. Andreas has a job critiquing film thanks to people spending money to see films.
10. Second Chance Pets was able to be open and for me to find Miss P thanks to money.
11. Steve’s kids are able to be educated and reach their potential thanks to his money.
12. Diane’s cancer is able to be treated at Dana Farber thanks to money.
13. Emmaly and I have had wonderful experiences, e.g. SkyZone, thanks to money.
All the awesome things and experiences money will add to my life:
1. I will be able to fix this house up and rent it without worry!
2. I will be able to foster or adopt and have supportive child care without worry.
3. I will be able to choose work independent of pay thanks to money.
4. I will be able to create, e.g., a nonprofit, without the need to work for money.
5. I will be able to create a scholarship in Funke’s name or in mine.
6. I will be able to leave money behind to Methodist Home for Children.
7. I will be able to take my mother and family on holiday together.
8. I will be able to visit Korea whenever I want, even living there part-time.
9. I will be able to have a home overseas, e.g., live in Indonesia, to explore Asia.
10. I will be able to visit Africa.
11. I will be free to create business plans and projects to improve the world.
12. I will be free to visit friends and family when I want.
13. I will be able to learn a language more easily with a tutor and more free time.
This list gets easier and easier to create.
A list of how me being rich will benefit others:
1. I will be free to visit friends and family and pay for them to go on trips if needed.
2. I will be free to create business plans and projects to improve the world.
3. I will be able to create a scholarship.
4. I will be able to leave a significant estate to Methodist Home for Children and others.
5. I will be able to give a child, or children, a home.
6. I will be able to donate to causes that affect people I love, e.g., breast cancer research.
7. I may run for office?
8. I will be able to bring family and HyeonJin from Korea to visit me here.
9. I will be able to make my home a place that people can feel comfortable to visit.
10. I will be able to be an example to others that having money is ok and very possible.
I am grateful to money because money creates possibilities in my life. Money liberates me to be more creative.