(This seems so silly.)
- I want to like you. I want to really learn to love you. Let’s go for it and really have some fun.
- I’m learning to really like you. I’m learning to really love you.
- I’m willing to learn to love you, Susan. I’m willing to learn to love you.
(Shit, this makes my eyes water.)
OK, this does feel silly. Writing these words and thinking about them made me feel joy-pain, but saying them in the mirror feels silly. The Louise Hay meditation sounded dated, but the Insight Timer app meditations work for me.
I just listened to Day 1 of How to Meditate with Sarah Blondin and find when I meditate, it makes me want to call someone I love. Ken Wilbur comes to mind today. I think because I have not responded to him since he wrote in March, the meditation gives releases me from some of that shame and guilt of being a bad friend, so what is left is love, and I wonder how he is doing.